One Birthday

The day of her birth.  Her birthday.  The day she was delivered.  They all are the same thing- but not technically. She was brought to life at conception- when God formed her little body.  She was delivered into are arms on this day so that we could hold her, touch her, spend cherished moments with her.  But I want to remember something clearly- and make sure you don't miss it-  because God made it clear what He wanted for her.  I don't know why, but I know He did.

She never felt the chill of this world on her skin.  She was never sad or cold or lonely..... She never experienced the tension between the world and her Spirit.  She never knew of any place that wasn't warm, cozy and perfect for her.  She could have.  She could have been born alive and experienced a much different few hours before passing away. I am so thankful for the authority that God took over her life and experience. So grateful that He removed the responsibility from my hands- and took it on Himself.  

We had a beautiful birthday celebration at her grave.  We removed her winter flowers and replaced them with a beautiful Springtime arrangement.  Jaden made her a necklace and eason brought a ceramic bird that belonged to my Grandmother. Will and I arranged the flowers and the kids placed their things on her grave.   Family and friends came and supported us with giggles and stories and words of wisdom. It wasn't fancy.  It was unorganized.  It was awkward mingling....much like the birthday celebrations of my other children:)

Thank you for celebrating with us.... those of you that came and braved the breezy day and those of you that sweetly remembered and honored us with prayer.  We felt it....the breath of God(although wintery today) blowing over us....whisking fear and doubt away....taking with it guilt and bad memories and bringing life where there was death.


We praise Him for her life...for each kick, each swallow, each turn she made....each brainwave, heartbeat and thought of her Spirit.  Her life matters....and we are so thankful.  She only had one birth day...but it mattered.